Thursday, December 30, 2010


           Well, Taylor much as I wish you would perhaps write a girl empowerment song, or something a bit different, I must say, your music is therapeutic.  She possesses the talent of putting her emotions into words (and a catchy tune), which is something a lot of people, like myself, cannot do.  My blogs have been my attempt to put my emotions into words, but no one can do it like Taylor Swift.  I've had her newest album Speak Now for quite some time now.  I still haven't really listened to all of the songs on the album. Today, I stumbled upon Superman.  Unfortunately, I'm not crazy about the music, but the lyrics, of course, fail to disappoint. I could just be biased because, well, I do enjoy how applicable her lyrics are to many of my emotions.  Especially when dealing with the male species...heh.  That's when I find I turn to her lyrics, because, well, she doesn't write about much else.  However, I am appreciative of these songs.  There's a Taylor Swift song for that.
"And I watch you fly around the world 
And I hope you don't save some other girl 
Don't forget, don't forget about me 
I'm far away but I never let you go 
I'm lovestruck and looking out the window 
Don't forget, don't forget where I'll be 
Right here wishing the flowers were from you 
Wishing the card was from you 
Wishing the call was from you 
'Cause I've loved you from the very first day." 
So, Taylor Swift, thank you.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010


         Oh, 2010.  Please don't end, because you've been far too good to me...Welcome to my year in review post.  2010 has brought me many things for which I am grateful for.  It's been a splendid year.  From graduating high school, falling in love, starting a new chapter in my life, and setting out on a journey to find myself, this year brought an ending to a comfortable past and a beginning to new endeavors.  Ladies and gentlemen, my year in review (in a scattered and clearly unorganized manner)....

         It was around this time last year (New Years Day to be exact) when I was confronted with a fresh start.  It was finally 2010, the year I'd graduate from high school.  My friends and I (and the entirety of the senior class I'm sure) were convinced that it was our year and no one could do anything about it because graduation was merely months away.   I rang in the new year with my best friends.  We almost missed it because we were so wrapped up in watching The Hangover, and we had failed to realize that we had five minutes until midnight.  Man, never a dull moment.  2010 brought me countless moments and adventures that I will remember for a lifetime.  For example, I was thrown my first surprise party for my birthday.  Yes, it most certainly did not fall short of a surprise.  My best friends and I discovered that we can talk for hours on end, possibly in any location, about anything that comes to mind.  And, we already have our weddings planned out because we love weddings.  I've seen countless firework shows at Disneyland without actually having to go inside the park.  I also spent 17 hours at Disneyland, and it was very possibly the greatest day I have ever spent with anyone.  Took the train to LA and San Diego.  Saw my first Laker game in the NBA Finals (game two).  Been in a party bus.  Filmed a great movie for an english project that embodied the story of an everlasting friendship.  Played softball competitively for my very last time.  Took a sudden interest in politics and it has now become a significant part of my college career.  Learned the ins and outs of journalism, and can now make references on the spot.  Lost the fear of failing, because it only prevents me from succeeding at unfamiliar tasks.
       2010 was a rollercoaster of emotions.  One of the greatest, and the most cherished emotions was love.  It was honestly an emotion that I wasn't aware I could completely feel about anyone other than family and friends.  An emotion I had not yet experienced until someone came into my life in a most unexpected fashion.  We met by chance.  Or as we once referred to it, "fate" had brought us together.  The previous year, we had our first conversation.  Random and out of the blue, discussing the Coldplay concert that we had both attended over the summer.  Turns out, we were at the very same one.  A random conversation with a complete stranger, lasting no more than two minutes.  I had finally met this boy that everyone knew and I had heard minor rumblings about.  Little did I know, he would be the one to leave me smiling every waking moment of every day.  Little did I know, he would be the one I fell in love with.  The new year began, and so did my relationship with him.  As I got to know him, I slowly realized that we were like each other in many ways.  It struck me as odd at first, how similar two complete strangers could be.  But, ah, fate.  Valentine's Day.  A delivery man came to the door with a box on February 13th.  My sister had answered the door and she told me that the package was for me, and it was Mrs. Field's Cookies(my favorite).  Somehow, I figured out a second who the package was from, a giant cookie enclosed in the box, along with a poem.  Right then I had realized that, this was no ordinary sort of relationship but, I began to feel something special.  He and I grew closer and closer as the year went on.  Many emotional distresses in dealing with the possibility of a relationship knowing that college was fast approaching.  However, the conclusion was finally reached and the relationship had finally been formed.  My very first boyfriend.  And days before that, my very first kiss.  Truthfully, I wasn't sure if I was going to be in my first relationship or have even had my first kiss before college.  But, as  I have come to learn, life is full of unexpected occurrences.  He and I shared many wonderful moments together whether it was going to Prom, a sporting event, or just sitting and enjoying each other's company.  Summertime brought us a carefree, blissful attitude.  This boy did so many wonderful things for me.  He is perfect and brilliant in every way possible.  He made me the happiest I have ever felt and the most beautiful I have ever felt.  Getting to spend every moment I could with a boy I fell very much in love with, was the highlight of my year.  Unfortunately, then came college.  The goodbye was dreadful.  It was one of the most difficult things I had ever done.  However, I held the prospect of a quick three months, and it would soon be Thanksgiving.  Too bad my optimism has a tendency to overshadow any realistic perspective. So there we were. Only a state away, but being in love made it seem as if we were worlds apart.  I felt as if things were slowly falling to pieces and the thought of our relationship coming to an end one day, tore me up inside.  So I took each day as it came, waiting and hoping things would  get easier.  College became a roadblock in the relationship, and it sadly came to and end.  Although we maintain a friendship, I still love him, and we are there for each other just as much as we ever were. I miss him.  But I do not regret one day spent with him.  How could you ever regret being with someone who brought you so much joy?  I am nothing but thankful, for he is a blessing.  Maybe, just maybe, one day in the future, we'll find our way back to each other.  2010 brought me my first kiss, my first boyfriend, and my first love

           As the year progressed, I had to learn to develop a sense of confidence in one of the biggest decisions I would make in my life.  The decision stayed with me in the back of my mind throughout the summer, as I tried to enjoy the moments with family and friends.  I've never been the girl that is known for taking risks but I did, and ventured out into the world known as college.  But, you see, I was moving away from home.  To a different state.  Adios California, hello Arizona.  The weeks leading up to my departure, all I could think about was leaving.  Who I was leaving, what I was leaving...why I was leaving.  The why hardly crossed my mind.  If it did, it wasn't in a positive light.  If I ever found myself asking "Why?" it consisted of, "Why didn't I apply to a school closer to my boyfriend? Why didn't my best friends and I apply to the same school?".  The last few days, I grew weary, thinking of all of these things.  I was finally leaving my comfort zone, and I was not thrilled.  At all.  However, in the back of my mind, I knew it was the right choice.  The school waiting for me across the state line is nothing less than ideal for my career.  I was to become the greatest journalist who ever lived!...well, that was my mind set.  Packing my things, saying goodbye to family, friends, and the comfort of what I once to knew to travel to the land of the unknown...what the heck was I thinking? The first month, being away from home was unbearable.  I cried every day for the first two weeks.  I was nothing short of a disaster.    

            Don't worry. I lived.  2010 brought me a new beginning with new experiences.  Not only have I had to experience leaving home and living on my own, but I've been able to experience all of this with new friends.  Being away at school, I can honestly say I've made some pretty remarkable friends.  Brittany, Ellie, Emilie, Anjelle, Jamie...the list could certainly go on.  I know these people I've met my first semester in college, will be life long friends.  Already we've shared wonderful memories and I am excited to see what the new year has in store for all of us.  A new semester, new classes, new friends, new experiences.  As I have become acclimated to school and my surroundings, I must say, it is the best decision I could have made.  God knows I would have been home all the time if I went to a school nearby.  I've become a stronger, more mature person.  I'm growing up and discovering who I am.  And, as I continue this journey to find myself and discover my passions, I am beginning to embrace daily blessings.  Going away to school has taught me so many things and in a way, how to become more of an adult.  Self-sufficient.  Without hesitation, I will say I could not have done any of this without support.  Through all of this, I have realized how lucky I am to have the support I do.  I was concerned about leaving the comfortable surroundings of being at home, but, I realized since I've been there, that the comfort hasn't gone anywhere.  Not only have I become comfortable at school, but the comfort of knowing that I always have the undying support from family and friends has been one of the greatest realizations of all.  My family and friends, new and old, have supported me through thick and thin this year.  You don't necessarily have to abide by "out with the old, in with the new".  You can keep as much "old" in your life as you wish, and welcome as much "new" as you please.

           As I conclude my year in review, I would like to thank my mom.  She has been there for me through every single rough patch and high point of my year.  She is my rock, I love her, and I couldn't be more blessed.  I am very fortunate and I'd like to say thank you.  As this year comes to a close, I've learned a few things about myself.  I also have learned that I need to change some things as well.  I will seize the day and practice patience. Two things which I most certainly have had issues with in the past, will now become a reality.  Even though this blog is a few days early, I hope everyone had a marvelous 2010.  I know I did.  All I have to say now is, bring on 2011.

Happy New Year!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Gift Of A Friend.

         Tonight, I dedicate this post to my best friends: Mari and Saralyn.  Although we may be at different schools and doing different things with our lives, they are always there for me and I couldn't be more grateful for them than I am right this moment.  Spending time with each other tonight, discussing how we first met and how we became ourselves when we met each other, really shed light on the fact that this friendship will last us a lifetime.  I wouldn't have it any other way.  These girls are the most beautiful people I am privileged to know and I cannot wait to see what successes the future brings them.  
"You'll change, inside, when you realize: The world comes to life and everything's bright, from beginning to end, when you have a friend by your side that helps you to find, the beauty you are when you open your heart and believe in, the gift of a friend."
Mari and Sara, if you guys are reading this, I love you two more than you will ever know.  May we have fantastic adventures, forever and always.

Goodnight blogesphere! 

Monday, December 27, 2010

Same Changes.

         This is going to seem arbitrary and uncharacteristic following what I just posted but, I think of it as a revelation of sorts. It's hard when you have to realize that you don't fit into someone's life the way you used to.  The feeling isn't great in the slightest.  But what's even more difficult than that is, once you come to that realization...what the heck are you supposed to do about it?
         Not fitting into someone's life like I used to, yeah, well...  But deciding what to do about it...can be a very challenging experience.  I am currently in the middle of that at the moment.  People begin to slowly move in different directions.  I guess, for now, it's important to be patient.  Patience is something I most certainly struggle with.  New Year's resolution? I need to let things work the way God has them planned.  I will never ever cut anyone out of my life.  But I suppose that I need to make the people who do have a place for me in their life constantly, a constant part of mine.  Beginning with God. 

Goodnight Blogesphere.


"Happiness is absolute. Happiness is the understanding and acceptance of life as it is in this very moment as completely perfect, because every creation of God is perfect. The degree to which you do not accept life in all of the Divine forms is the degree to which you suffer."

Saturday, December 25, 2010

I'm Dreaming Of A White Christmas.

          Which is too bad, cause it doesn't snow here.

Merry Christmas to all!
Remember to enjoy today for what it brings, as you should enjoy every day.  Embrace family, friends, and all that we're blessed with in these difficult times. Wishing you and your family a very Merry Christmas.

Goodnight Blogesphere! 

Friday, December 24, 2010

Postcards from Italy.

         Happy Christmas Eve :) Not much to blog this evening, but I do have a remarkable quote that I'd love to share with you all:
"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen." - Elizabeth Kubler Ross
God Bless!

Goodnight Blogesphere!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Before The Storm.

        Home! I don't think I've blogged since I've left Arizona.  Well, I'm back home and it hasn't stopped raining.  I'd like to think I make it rain.  But ya know...that was a joke.  Anyways, I'm back home and it feels great to be here.  The first couple of days I was in such an odd mood.  And of course, being as ridiculous as I can be sometimes, I took it out on my family.  Well not really took it out on them.  I just have had a short fuse.  I've said this a million times, but I really need to start living for the moment.  Not disregarding consequences, but living and enjoying the moments that we're in seems an appropriate way to live one's life.  This blog turned out to be a lot shorter than I thought it was going to be.  Today, I was also able to realize, it's never ever good to hold in emotion for long periods of time.  Especially if it's months.  When you finally release all of those emotions, it is the greatest feeling in the world and you are left with nothing but complete happiness and satisfaction :) I feel like, singing in the rain...

Goodnight blogesphere. 

Wednesday, December 15, 2010


      Home for a month tomorrow.  I couldn't be more excited!

Goodnight blogesphere :)

I Would Be Sad.

     Today has been another roller coaster of emotions.  It started off with my politics final, which I am confident I did very well on.  I hope so anyway.  I just, I don't know.  Lately I've found quite a few songs that describe exactly what it is that I'm feeling.  Today, it's If It's The Beaches by The Avett Brothers.
Don't say it's over
Cause that's the worst news I 
could hear I swear that I will 
Do my best to be here 
just the way you like it
Even though its hard to hide
Push my feelings all aside
I will rearrange my plans and 
change for you

If I could go back 
That's the first thing I would do 
I swear that I would
Do my best to follow through
Come up with a master plan
A homerun hit, a winning stand
A gaurantee and not a promise
That I'll never let your love 
slip from my hands

If it's the beaches 
If it's the beaches' sands you want
Then you will have them
If it's the mountains' bending rivers
Then you will have them
If it's the wish to run away 
Then I will grant it
Take whatever you think of
While I go gas up the truck
Pack the old love letters up
We will read them when 
we forget why we left here
     It's quite a lovely song.  Today has just been one of those days where I don't really know what I should be doing.  The hardest part about the situation I'm in is that, I have to give things time.  I'd like to think I'm the most patient person in the world, however, that is false.  I'm the type of person who likes results and solutions in an instant.  However, love is different.  Love takes time, and time is what I need to let invade my life for a little bit.  I only really have to be patient a couple more days.  I can say that I will no longer have, or give, myself control over this situation any longer.  And I need, we need, some sort of clarification.  I'd like to fix things, however that may be.  But, I don't want to force myself on to someone if they aren't feeling the same clarification is needed.  So, as I attempt to follow the quote on the top of this blog, here's to patience. 

Goodnight Blogesphere!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Be Prepared.

     I have a technically.   In short, I have no idea what's going on.  I also have a final Wednesday. Freaking out.  I should go to sleep.

Goodnight blogesphere.

Monday, December 13, 2010

If It's The Beaches.

     Back on track with the song title as the blog title again.  Blogging and enjoying my "Constant Comment" tea.  I've become a tea addict; a bedtime routine I've grown quite fond of.  I can't wait to be home in 3 days.  Two finals to get through and I'm home free!  Literally!  Well, not literally, exactly.  I've discovered the musical stylings of The Avett Brothers and I do enjoy their music, a lot.  I have yet to explore all of their music, but my favorite songs by them at the moment are:
             If It's The Beaches
             January Wedding
             I Would Be Sad
Great songs!  I'm excited to explore the rest of their music.  No class tomorrow will be nice.  Leaving school for a month for Winter Break does make me sad.  I'm going to miss all of my friends here but I am still very excited to see all of my friends from back home.  
      I would like to say thank you to the most awesome girl on the plant, Lauren, for helping me through all of my emotional ups and downs.  She's been an absolutely listener during this whole thing, and I couldn't be more thankful :)

Alright, well I thought I had a lot to blog tonight, but it turns out...not really.

Goodnight blogesphere!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

It fits my mood.

     So I gave up on the song title theme for a little bit.  Mostly because I couldn't think of anything else to put right now.  I've been a little emotionally off lately.  All sorts of emotions going on right now.  Happy, sad, excited, stressed out, nervous...and more I'm sure.  It's been quite the past few days.  One of my really good friends, Ellie, is leaving ASU this Wednesday.  I've become pretty close with her and it's sad to lose a good friend :(  I will miss her presence amongst the dorms dearly.  We had "Ellie Day" today.  Exchanged Christmas gifts, went ice skating, gallivanting around the city, out to dinner, and baked her a cake.  It was quite wonderful.  But yes, anyway.  I often turn to music when I'm feeling a little extra emotional.  Any sort of emotion.  Could by happy, excited, sad, whichever emotion, there's gotta be a song for it, right? WELL.  I recently registered with StumbleUpon and I came across this wonderful link:
Stereo Mood
     It's so great.  I'm listening to sad right now, I really enjoy the music it's providing me.  Thank you StumbleUpon.  I can't decide if I'm tired or not.  Although one should be with little sleep, and the need to wake up to go to Zumba class at 10am.  Zumba has been such a great outlet for a lot of, well, my emotions.   I feel like that word is appearing in this particular blogging session too much, but, it's just been that kind of day.  If you've never taken a Zumba class, I HIGHLY SUGGEST IT.  It's quite the experience and a great workout.  
    My last two finals are approaching.  Best thing is, I don't know how to prepare for one and I need to ace the other.  So, you can only imagine how I'm feeling right about now.  The next couple of days should be fun (oh hey sarcasm).  I know everything I need to know, it's just the matter of memorization.  So here goes nothing!  

Government & Politics Final (Part 2) - I own you.
History and Principles of Journalism Final - Nice try, but you're mine for the taking.


Goodnight blogesphere! 

Friday, December 10, 2010

Saw it. Had to blog it.

"Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: 'I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today, I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today and I’m going to be happy in it.'"
                                - Groucho Marx

Make 'Em Laugh.

         Today was weird. An emotional rollercoaster to say the least.  I was in a terrible mood this morning.  So annoyed with everything, and it basically carried on through the evening.  Although I finished my english paper early! However, I was still annoyed. But I spent some time in our common room with some pretty hilarious people.  I have recently discovered StumbleUpon and I was on it for hours.  It's SO very entertaining.  I did four loads of laundry today as well.  I was a productive lady.  Then I discovered "Damn You Autocorrect" and looked at about 25 pages of different iPhone autocorrect issues.  I have been cracking up for the past hour, most likely because I haven't laughed all day long.  It felt marvelous to laugh!  
         Tonight made up for the rough morning I was having.  And I know I mentioned this in a previous post, but I really need to start living for the day.  My wonderful friend Lauren actual told me to do that today.  And I think it's time I start taking things one day at a time and embracing everything that comes my way.  "Do what makes you happy."  Time to take on a new perspective, I think.  Glee doesn't come back until February.  That upsets me a little bit.  Alright well I'm rambling.  I have a final and a review session tomorrow.  Time to sleep.


Goodnight blogesphere!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Some Kind Of Wonderful.

"And just when I, I start to think they're right 
That love has died... 

There you go making my heart beat again, 
Heart beat again, 
Heart beat again 
There you go making me feel like a kid 
Won't you do it and do it one time? 
There you go pulling me right back in, 
Right back in, 
Right back in 
And I know-oo I'm never letting this go-ooo 

I'm stuck on you 
Wuh-oh, wuh-oh 
Stuck like glue 
You and me baby we're stuck like glue 
Wuh-oh wuh-oh 
Stuck like glue 
You and me baby we're stuck like glue."

That's really all I have to say. Goodnight blogesphere!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Just The Way You Are.

       Not sure what to say about today, other than, it was kind of wonderful.  No clue where to start, so I'll start from the beginning...

      Today was the very last day of my first semester in college.  As exciting as that is for a lot of people, I don't consider this semester over and done with until these finals are done.  I had the first half of my Government & Politics and final today.  Turns out studying didn't do me much good because the material I studied wasn't really on the test.  So I'm feeling super about that.  Thankfully next Tuesday I have a chance to redeem myself with the second portion of the final.  But yeah, semester one of college is over.  Seven more to go and I am outta here!  I also took a nap.  I know what you're thinking, I'm glad I read this blog today...but seriously.  I've needed a nap for about two weeks now, so it was a monumental part of my day.  Today I got to feel some emotions I haven't felt in a couple of days.  Happiness, this joyousness overflowed me.  Maintaining communication, best decision we could have made. I really don't know what else to write at this point.  You make me draw hearts on Post-It notes.  

Goodnight blogesphere! 

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

The Future Freaks Me Out.

Back To Perfect

What do you say, we return to the past.
Don't move forward, take 3 1/2 steps back,
When things were alright, and love could last.
I'd like to go back, back to perfect.

They tell me not to hold on to what I once had, 
But if it means I can hold you again...
Why don't we just go back?
Back to perfect.

        I've been stuck in the past today.  It's great for a while, until you realize that the present is nothing like the past.  This can be construed as something magnificent in some cases.  In this case, however, I beg to differ.  I wish that some aspects of my past carried over to the present, and even the future.  There is no telling if it will show up again in the future like I am praying it will.  Even then, maybe there won't be place for me if it does show up.  I despise unpredictability. But I suppose that's what makes life so "exciting".
       I'd also like to know how the heck I was tired at 11:30pm, fell asleep, woke up at 12:45am and was unable to go back to sleep.  It wasn't a nap.  I was excited because I thought I was going to get the required amount of sleep for once.  On the bright side, I get through my Government & Politics final tomorrow, English class (last day of first semester classes!), come back, run errands, go to my Grammar for Journalists review session, and then...I have nothing scheduled after that.  At least Wednesday is Reading Day.  No classes and from December 9th - December 15th, it's 24/7 quiet hours in TP.  That should be lovely.  Although, I've found my new favorite place is indeed the library.
"Don't panic.  I'm with you.  There's no need to fear for I'm your God.  I'll give you strength.  I'll help you.  I'll hold you steady, keep a tight grip on you."  Isaiah 41:10
        Well, here's to finals week! Home in about a week, thank goodness for Winter Break.  A whole month without a care in the world.  I am enjoying the sound of that.

Goodnight blogesphere!

Monday, December 6, 2010

Awake My Soul.

        When I compose these blogs, I feel as if I am writing to no one. But I don't mind if that is the case.  Turns out, I cannot sleep.  Shocker.  As I began to drift off to sleep (peacefully, I might add), I had a strange sort of dream (thought maybe? I don't know what you would call a falling asleep thought/dream).  Maybe I could consider it a thought because it was so abrupt and short, but I definitely didn't bring it on.  It was my subconscious.  Promise.  This has happened quite a few times in the past couple of weeks, actually.  I begin to fall asleep, and I suddenly awaken at the feeling and harsh realization that something that I once had, is no longer mine.  What's worse is that, in this dream, this something has become someone else's.  I'm no dream-interpreter, but, it seems to me like that is what I'm most afraid of right now.  It awakens me suddenly, and then moments later I find myself reading a book, listening to music, or on the Internet (always my last resort because it stimulates the brain and makes it more difficult to actually fall asleep, FACT), trying to find a way to fall back to sleep.  The Internet is where this reoccurring dream/thought has brought me tonight.  Like I stated earlier today, things will get better with time, and time takes time. Unfortunately. 
        Time is a tricky thing I guess.  I have a love-hate relationship with time, as does everyone, I would assume.  On occasion, I wish time would fly by so we can get to those moments in the day, week, month, or year that we most desire.  But if time were to fly as we wished it would, we would miss out on daily blessings from God.  God has blessed me with wonderful people and wonderful aspects of my life.  I think it's time to "seize the day" and enjoy each day for what it brings us, and not worry about the tomorrows.  Although, that's growing progressively harder to do with finals coming up.  I am constantly finding myself thinking about what I need to do, and if I have done everything possible to prepare myself for these exams and essays. 
        I'm also thinking about Christmas.  A lot.  And that's several tomorrows away.  But, I can't help it. I'm so excited :)  And when I get home (9 days 19 hours), I know I will be even more excited.  A bite in the air, Christmas decorations everywhere, and people in such a joyous mood.  As you can see, my mood has changed dramatically from the beginning of this blog to now.  It's a stream of consciousness.  I'm also listening to KOST 103.5. THE station for holiday music, 24/7.  It's the religious Christmas songs, that really get me thinking about the holiday season. The traditional songs are great and all, love them dearly.  But the religious songs, really get me thinking about the "reason for the season", if you will.  Jesus is the reason for the season, after all.  He is my Lord and Savior, and what Christmas is all about.
        Coming full-circle (perhaps?), I need to put my faith in God and trust that I go through daily trails and tribulations, not out of punishment, but out of blessing.  I am blessed to go through the daily struggle of whatever the day may throw me, to do what I am doing right this moment.  Which is, recognizing how blessed I truly am and how I really shouldn't upset myself over petty things, because, God has everything planned out for me, and He is in control.  And that is a blessing in itself.  For example, things we once had that we may lose possession of.  God creates these situations for us, because He knows what we need.  And these things that we have lost possession of, may come back to us one day, when the time is right.  He knows, and I trust in Him to guide me down the path He has chosen for me.  God is great, His love for us is beautiful. 

"Your love, God, took hold and held me fast.  When I was upset and beside myself, you calmed me down and cheered me up."  Psalm 94:18-19

         So, after this much needed therapeutic (and self-realization) blogging session, hopefully I'll be able to get some sleep now.  I have a math final in 6 hours for goodness sake!...and I wanted to wake-up early to get breakfast from the dining hall *sigh*.  Well, the sacrifices we must make to feed our hungry-selves in the morning...usually consist of sleep and creating a decent looking appearance.  Oh well, it's college right? Who wears makeup in college? :P

Goodnight blogesphere! 

Need You Now.

"Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor. Reachin' for  the phone cause, I can't fight it anymore. And I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time..."

Just wondering.  

Sunday, December 5, 2010


As I sit in the library, I'm not sure how I'm feeling today. Studying for finals and doing countless amounts of math homework isn't exactly what I would call an activity to lift your spirits. But you have to do things you don't want to sometimes, because it's what's best for you and others. That is applicable in various aspects of life and I have found it to be true, I suppose. Sometimes it's difficult to do the right thing, but it can benefit all parties involved, including yourself. I'm still struggling to find out how doing "the right thing" can benefit how I'm feeling sometimes. For example, taking a math class. I know how to add and subtract. Multiply and divide. I will never need to know how to graph something as a journalist. But, we take math because we have to, whether it makes us feel like punching a wall or not. And sometimes we just have to do things and make certain decisions because, well, we just have to. Although I am not feeling the positive effects of said decision and haven't for the past couple of weeks, I know things heal with time. And time takes time. Sooner or later, you will go back to feeling how you did at the beginning. Refreshed, and renewed. So here's to time!...and the ridiculousness that is mathematics in any shape or form.

"And it's you I see, but you don't see me. And it's you I hear, so loud and so clear. I sing it loud and clear, and I'll always be waiting for you. So I look in your direction, but you pay me no attention, and you know how much I need you, but you never even see me."

Wish me luck on this awful math final.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Can't Stand It.

Alright, awesome. I was double checking all of my courses just to make sure I was set for all of my finals and knew what I needed to do to prepare for them. Looked under my politics class and HELLO. A ton of new stuff has been added and I'm freaking out to say the least. The final is in two parts and it looks like my face is going to be in that book (more than any of my others) for the next week and a half. My journalism final is also worrying me quite a bit. Lots of info to remember. Here's to praying my memory suffices and I make it through these next two weeks known as "Finals Week". Wish me luck...

Missy Higgins.

If you're a Missy Higgins fan, you might have already realized that the title of my blog is a song  title of hers. I've been into a lot of her music lately. Particularly the song 'Ten Days'. 

"Cos baby time has changed nothing at all - 
You're still the only one that feels like home."

The lyrics to this song are quite wonderful, so thank you Missy Higgins.  

Friday, December 3, 2010

Hello Blogesphere!

So, I've decided to blog. How often this will occur, I really can't tell you. My blog doesn't really have much of a theme, or point really. Just blogging to blog, express myself, ya know.

So if you're reading this, enjoy my daily words of wisdom... :)