Friday, January 7, 2011

Never Have I Ever...

...felt this okay about everything in my life.  As I blog tonight, I am crying tears of joy because I finally feel like everything is okay.  Sometimes it takes simply admitting what your problems are to the ones you feel it might affect your relationship with, only to find out they are there for you more than anyone else has been.  Tonight, I finally got up the courage to do just that.  And as I just said, I've never felt better about every aspect of my life than I do right now.  As he said repeatedly, "You're okay." and guess what?   I am.  I am okay.  My life isn't in shambles, as I had thought the past four months.  It's just fine.  And for the first time in months, I finally feel...happy.  
        Dear whoever is actually reading my blog: Please don't be afraid to talk to someone about things that are bothering you.  If you hesitate to do so, it only makes things worse. Much worse.  Don't talk to different people about different things either.  If you can find someone you can pour your heart out to, then shit, just do it.  Tell them everything.  If they're your friend, they'll listen.  
        As I was saying yesterday, I just needed someone to listen.  And tonight I found someone who listened.  Not only did he listen, he gave me the greatest advice and reassurance I've ever received.  At this present moment, I don't know what I'm doing.  But, that's okay.  College is time to build your experiences so you become the well-rounded leader that the majority of employers are looking for.  Today, I have no idea what I'm doing with my college education, but that's okay because I really shouldn't have any idea.  It's time to work hard, explore, and enjoy myself.  Time to go back to being confident and doing things that will make me a better person.  
        So here's to life, because everything is okay.

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