I Would Be Sad.

     Today has been another roller coaster of emotions.  It started off with my politics final, which I am confident I did very well on.  I hope so anyway.  I just, I don't know.  Lately I've found quite a few songs that describe exactly what it is that I'm feeling.  Today, it's If It's The Beaches by The Avett Brothers.

Don't say it's over
Cause that's the worst news I 
could hear I swear that I will 
Do my best to be here 
just the way you like it
Even though its hard to hide
Push my feelings all aside
I will rearrange my plans and 
change for you

If I could go back 
That's the first thing I would do 
I swear that I would
Do my best to follow through
Come up with a master plan
A homerun hit, a winning stand
A gaurantee and not a promise
That I'll never let your love 
slip from my hands

If it's the beaches 
If it's the beaches' sands you want
Then you will have them
If it's the mountains' bending rivers
Then you will have them
If it's the wish to run away 
Then I will grant it
Take whatever you think of
While I go gas up the truck
Pack the old love letters up
We will read them when 
we forget why we left here

     It's quite a lovely song.  Today has just been one of those days where I don't really know what I should be doing.  The hardest part about the situation I'm in is that, I have to give things time.  I'd like to think I'm the most patient person in the world, however, that is false.  I'm the type of person who likes results and solutions in an instant.  However, love is different.  Love takes time, and time is what I need to let invade my life for a little bit.  I only really have to be patient a couple more days.  I can say that I will no longer have, or give, myself control over this situation any longer.  And I need, we need, some sort of clarification.  I'd like to fix things, however that may be.  But, I don't want to force myself on to someone if they aren't feeling the same clarification is needed.  So, as I attempt to follow the quote on the top of this blog, here's to patience. 




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